Saturday, December 31, 2005

Happy New Year!

Time goes by so fast. Year 2005 is about to go some hours left and here I am, celebrating my 2nd New Year in Germany with my best friend, my lover, my husband: Felix.
Let me spend some times of the last day in this year by sitting in front of my computer, trying to count some tremendous events happened during year 2005. Some points I would like to highlight now...

Starting from the sad occurences. Some good friends who have been such a bro and sis for us, had to leave Germany for good. Novi had to go back to Indonesia, Lala had to move to USA (but currently she is spending holidays in Jakarta -- good to know that!), and Viona moved to Hirrlingen (another corner in South Germany). It wasn't easy at all for us since we used to spend most of our times with them. Met up and visited each other, chatted on the phone... They were really friends we could trust on, friends who would always be around us in good and bad times. I will always keep the memories deeply in my heart.
Lucky that we still have Hellen, Marlen, and Lars here in Bremen.

Another sad thing came in the middle of the year. I heard that a newborn baby boy of my cousin in Makassar, died some hours after born. Hard to believe it, mais c'est la vie... Couldn't do anything at that moment :(.

Well now, let's jump to the pleasant things. Start with our moving to a new renovated apartment in the beginning of May (I know there is no way to express my thankful to Jimmy, Lala, Widha, and Syakir for their help and support on that hard day!). The location is a bit hectic because it's in the center area of the city. But still, some friends said that the flat itself is quite nice and modern though. I personally would say that it's much better than the one we had before :).

The next fabulous thing highlighted this year was a new job I got from my Professor. I'm so blessed by offered this job as sometimes I think that I don't qualify for the post. Doing some literature researches to assist my Professor in writing her cookbook. Meanwhile, it has been unconciously enriching my own knowledges. The good thing of this job is I could do it from home... Yeah!!
Then a great thing happened to my husband. He got two jobs at the same time! Thanks God! One is a work in Fallturm Uni-Bremen (a space research center) -- in my eyes, he deserves for that position. And another one is a work in Bombay Restaurant near by our apartment.

Last but not the least that really higlighted year 2005 was some trips to other places: Amsterdam, Berlin, Düsseldorf, Köln, and ended by celebrating Christmas in Paris. On the trip to Amsterdam, we met new friends from India: Namrata and Nirdesh, and still keep in touch with them till right now. In Berlin, we had wonderful times with my husband's DAAD friends and we were so lucky because of the whole journey and accomodation were funded by DAAD. In Paris, we were glad to see again our friend from long time, Gregory. He came with his mother, Nelly -- it was the first time we met Nelly face to face :).

There all you have sum-up of year 2005 from me.
Now, let us pray for the coming new year, that there will be no bomb anymore in Indonesia (some people will doubt this), and put our hopes in all the way just in Him.
For ourselves, we hope that we could finish our thesis by end of July 2006 and could experience to have a baby wherever and whenever in 2006.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Many greetings from the snowy Bremen.

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Merry Christmas!

After a week wonderful holiday, I'm glad to be home again and get contact back with my computer...

Just wanna say Merry Christmas for those who celebrate it...
Whatever you did to celebrate this wonderful time of year, and whether you headed for the beach, to the slopes, or visited some friends and family, or just stayed at home, I hope you really had a joyous time.



I celebrated the Christmas eve at the Cathédrale Notre Dame, along with my husband, Gregory and mommy Nelly... That was a great moment!
Again, Merry Christmas!

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Snow in Bremen

God's promises are yes and amen. He said that he would sent wondrous signs.
Two days ago, after the gentle refreshing rain fell down, I saw a beauty rainbow on the sky. Then I knew, He still and will always remember His promise to Noah.

And yesterday morning when I woke up, I looked out of my apartment, I saw snow on the ground. It was amazing to me to see snow at this time. I remember in last winter the snow was falling down in the middle of December, just very little. But since yesterday till now, we have a really snow! Yes, winter is coming!
Even I don't like winter, but I always enjoy the snow. It's so soft, pure and white.

I took some pics with some different views from the 4th floor, Daniel-von-Bueren-Str. 54, 28195 Bremen.

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Rapuh

Penggalan kisah hidupku seminggu kemarin :)

Minggu, 13 Nov: Seharian aku merasa gak enak badan, mungkin karena pengaruh tenggorokan yang sakit, tapi aku kuat2in saja, soalnya banyak teman2 yang datang: Hellen, Mbak Maya dan Mas JJ serta Mbak Rahma. Malamnya setelah semua pulang, aku semakin merasa gak enak badan, mulai menggigil.. Heran, aku kena radang tenggorokan tapi kok sampe menggigil ya? Hmm, pergantian cuaca memang bikin tubuh jadi harus beradaptasi lagi :)

Senin, 14 Nov: Pagi hari, aku gak bisa bangun! Tiap kali mencoba bangkit, rasanya kepalaku berputar2 dan berattt sekali. Aku demam. Akhirnya aku gak berangkat kuliah. Di rumah saja, makan bubur, minum obat, dan tidur. Lupakan kuliah 'Typography and Layout' yang sangat menarik itu.

Selasa, 15 Nov: Panasku semakin tinggi. Suamiku malah menemukan banyak bintik2 di tubuhku! Demam berdarah, katanya. O tidak! Di Indo aku emang pernah kena demam berdarah. Tapi di sini, mana ada nyamuk?? Suamiku bilang sebaiknya periksa ke dokter saja (kalimat itu lagi!). Tapi aku bersikeras tidak mau! Takut diminta opname.. Akhirnya, dosis antibiotik dinaikkan. Aku harus benar2 beristirahat. Untung sekali shooting di Nordsee-store hari ini dibatalkan.

Rabu, 16 Nov: Aku semakin yakin, ini penyakit lamaku yang kumat kembali: Typhus. Selama di Indo, mungkin ada 3 kali aku kena Typhus. Jadi aku sudah hapal dengan gejalanya: pusing, panas tinggi tapi seringkali menggigil, mencret2. But it's fine now! Karena dengan yakinnya aku akan penyakit ini, aku jadi tahu harus minum obat apa: Dexa dosis 500 mg! Suamiku sedih sekali. Tapi aku tahu, doanya tidak pernah berhenti.. Aku ingat Papi, ingat Mami, ingat adik2ku di Indo. Doa mereka juga tidak pernah berhenti..

Kamis, 17 Nov: Entah kenapa, pagi hari suhu tubuhku sudah turun. Thanks God! Emang sih masih agak pusing, tapi aku jadi semangat! Setelah makan bubur dan minum obat, aku langsung mandi, wuihh segarnya.. Suamiku senang sekali. Aku lantas siap2, jam 13.45 aku ada kuliah, belajar software baru. Kalo gak ikut sekali, aku bisa ketinggalan jauh. Meski suamiku gak ngijinin pergi, aku mbandel, wong mau kuliah kok dilarang :)

Jumat, 18 Nov: Pagi hari ada meeting dan presentasi seluruh project DM Master Student di Uni-Bremen. Aku bangun dengan susah payah, kepalaku sakit sekali, tapi aku harus berangkat. Pulangnya, aku masih sempat bikin nasi goreng, sebelum akhirnya tertidur karena kecapekan dan kepala pusing. Tengah malam, aku terbangun, badanku panas lagi, kepalaku berattt seperti habis dipentungin. Aku lihat suamiku sedang tertidur lelap, gak tega banguninnya. Untung aku masih bisa jalan ke dapur, buka kulkas, ambil sepotong kue, minum obat (lagi), dan tidur kembali.

Sabtu, hari ini: Bangun pagi dengan kondisi lemah (kembali). Tapi aku diingatkan satu hal: Meski sakit dan lemah, meski aku rapuh, tapi aku harus tetap mengucap syukur. Lihatlah, hari ini langit biru cerah sekali, burung2 berkicau riang, matahari tampak malu2 untuk keluar dari balik awan, indah sekali.. BerkatNya selalu baru tiap hari. Aku bersyukur untuk suamiku, untuk studi kami yang cukup lancar, untuk tempat tinggal, untuk uang yang cukup, untuk pekerjaan kami, untuk orang tua dan saudara2 kami di Indo, untuk teman2 kami, oohh sungguh tak terhitung berkatNya!!

Friday, November 04, 2005

I am sad..

Today my project team has a meeting with our client. The meeting was about the storyboard we created for the CBT.
I can feel that the meeting wasn't so good, quite boring if I'm allowed to say that...
And now, I'm so sad because of the meeting...

It's normal when somebody feel the sadnees, but then it becomes hard if you can't deal with it.
I know, I'm not alone. Everybody gets sad.
To be honest, sometimes with sadness, there are other feelings mixed in too. When you're sad, you might also feel angry or guilty. You might feel like blaming others or even blaming yourself.
And that's not good. You should finish it soon and make a reconsiliation.

So now, I think I have to go into my room, get on my knees, and talk to Him...

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Autumn

This is the second Autumn that I have experienced since I came here.
Yesterday I talked to Sebastian and Farhan about this.
I told them how I admired the beauty of Autumn, when the sun reflects the colors, the golden yellows, the crimson reds, all seem to blend together so perfectly. And when the Autumn rain starts falling, bathing the leaves upon the ground, I often pause and stand in wonder at God's beauty scattered all around.
It's like a simple reminder of who's in charge and blesses us with this beauty so rare.
I feel that God is showing us a bit of heaven as we look :)

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

Last night on SAT 1: Bayern München vs Juventus

Did any of you see the live-match shown last night between Bayern München and Juventus?
Oh, it was so annoying! The score was ended with 2-1 for Bayern.
As a fanatic Juventini, I consciously judged the referee who seemed to be unfair to Juve. Poor Juve...
But I'm just awaiting for the next coming match, on the 2nd of November in Turin!
Watchout Bayern!

Monday, October 17, 2005

Mereka berkata: "periksalah ke dokter"

Setelah phobia akan ular, aku yakin kalimat seperti: "periksalah ke dokter" akan menjadi phobia keduaku.
Bagaimana tidak, dalam beberapa bulan ini aku 'terpaksa' harus periksa ke dokter karena merasa ada sesuatu yang 'tidak semestinya' dalam tubuhku. Karena ingin tahu apa itu sebenarnya, aku coba telpon beberapa teman. Dan semua memberi saran yang sama: "periksalah ke dokter".
Setelah pikir-pikir dan diskusi dengan suami, oke.. akhirnya kami putuskan untuk periksa ke dokter.
Kalian tahu kan bagaimana rasanya pergi ke dokter? Begitu masuk ke klinik/tempat praktek, aroma ruangan yang bernuansa 'sakit' langsung terasa.. dan itu membuat aku jadi merasa benar-benar sakit! Mungkin karena kombinasi dari rasa takut, kuatir, dan tegang akan hasil pemeriksaan nanti. Belum lagi melihat pasien-pasien lain yang sepertinya memang benar-benar sakit, wah makin desperate-lah aku. Padahal sebenarnya (bisa jadi) tidak ada apa-apa. Oh mamamia...
Sejak kecil, aku memang paling takut ke dokter. Kalau sakit, sedapat mungkin aku akan minum obat-obatan yang notabene sudah jelas fungsinya - paracetamol untuk menurunkan demam, amoxy and ampicillin untuk antibiotik, antalgin untuk menghilangkan rasa sakit - tuh pinter kan saya?:). Atau aku akan beli obat-obatan yang banyak dijual di warung-warung di Indo - Procol, Decolgen, Panadol, dll. Kalau sudah parah, sedapat mungkin dokter kenalan keluarga akan diminta datang ke rumah untuk periksa. Dan kalau sudah sangat sangat parah, barulah aku akan periksa ke dokter.
Aku tahu, ini tidak baik. Seperti pepatah bilang: mencegah lebih baik daripada mengobati. Tapi sungguh, tidak ada yang kata yang bisa mendeskripsikan betapa alerginya aku dengan kalimat: "periksalah ke dokter"...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Busy

It's been a busy week.
My first assignment from Audio-Visual-Media class should be ready in two weeks: a video script for one section of the learning contents for Nordsee's ongoing CBT project.
Can't wait for the shooting day.

Friday, October 14, 2005

Thank You

Thank You.

Princess Diana used to said that they are only two small words but mean so much, and people don't say them often enough these days. I most definitely agree this.
As I have also learned from my parents who always saying these two words for every single thing they got from others!

Don't be hesitate to spend a few seconds of your time just to thank someone for the help, kindness, generosity, hospitality, advice, or friendship. Kindly you could take some time to sit down and write a thank you letter.

Friday, August 26, 2005

Kakek Tua

Kejadian ini berlangsung beberapa minggu yang lalu, sewaktu Tante Lily (mamanya Lala) masih di Bremen.

Di suatu Senin siang, sewaktu sedang berdiri di Halte Gelsenkirchenerstrasse menunggu bis 59 ke Wal-Mart, di depanku melintas seorang kakek tua naik sepeda (yang boleh dikata masih baru, sangat kinclong soalnya) dan pakai setelan jas :). Di bagian depan sepedanya ada sebuah keranjang yang berisi barang2 belanjaan dia. Ahh, rupanya dia baru selesai berbelanja di Wal-Mart. Tapi yang membuat penampilan kakek itu agak 'beda' adalah karena dalam beberapa detik ketika dia melintas di depanku, dia menyempatkan diri menoleh, tersenyum ramah dan menganggukkan kepalanya.. Walah, aku sampai terpesona. Bukan karena ge-er atau apa, tapi kejadian ini kontras sekali dengan kejadian hari Minggu sebelumnya.

Hari Minggu kemarinnya, sewaktu berjalan2 di Bahnhof bersama Tante Lily, Lala, Viona, dan Felix, seorang nenek tua lewat di sebelah kami sambil ngoceh: "Sie sind alle dumm" [kalian semua bodoh]. Kebetulan yang denger itu Lala, trus karena takutnya salah dengar, sama Lala dibales: "Bitte..?" [maaf..?], dan nenek itu bilang lagi: "Dumm, alle sind dumm!", kali ini sambil mengangkat tongkatnya ke arah ke kami. Hah! Gak ada angin gak ada hujan, hari gini masih ada aja orang sinting berkeliaran di kota. Tapi enggak ding, kami yakin 100% nenek itu gak sinting. Kami rasa dia adalah satu dari banyak orang Jerman yang tidak suka dengan orang asing. Yaa itu hal yang biasa di sini.

Kembali ke kakek tua tadi, makanya aku jadi agak terkejut dia mau senyum ramah. Hmm, ternyata masih ada juga orang Jerman yang menghargai orang asing (pasti dong ya, duh hiperbolik banget ya kalimat ini).

Tak lama kemudian bis yang kutunggu datang. Ketika hendak naik ke bis, tiba2 dari arah depan terdengar suara benturan keras. Entah apa. Karena buru2, aku gak sempat lagi menengok. Kemudian bis mulai jalan. Baru jalan beberapa detik, aku sudah jerit2 di bis (dalam hati tapi :)). Di depan kami terjadi kecelakaan, rupanya itulah sumber bunyi keras tadi. Tapi yang membuat sangat shock, aku melihat tubuh kakek tua yang tadi tersenyum ramah, sedang digotong ke arah pinggir jalan, dengan kepala penuh berlumuran darah. Sepedanya yang kinclong itu sudah kelihatan peot, gak jelas lagi bentuknya. Mobil2 pada berhenti, orang2 pada berlarian menolong dia. Ada yang sekedar membawakan karton untuk alas tubuh dia, ada yang membawakan payung dan menudungi tubuhnya (karena tiba2 gerimis turun), ada juga yang berusaha menelpon... Pokoknya semua orang jadi pada sibuk nolongin kakek itu. Kasihan sekali..

Dari dalam bis, aku hanya bisa berdoa semoga kondisi kakek itu tidak terlalu parah..

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

~ hesti and felix ~

Remember When It Rained - Josh Groban

Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you.
No more love and no more pride
And thoughts are all I have to do.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
Felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the darkness I remain.

Tears of hope run down my skin.
Tears for you that will not dry.
They magnify the one within
And let the outside slowly die.

Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
I felt the ground and looked up high
And called your name.
Ohhhhhh Remember when it rained.
In the water I remain
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down
Running down

Praise Practice - Esther M. Bailey

In a small group where several members were encouraged to vocalize a prayer each week, the leader decided to try an experiment. "Tonight, let's limit our prayer to expressions of praise," he suggested. It didn't work.
Our tendency to focus on personal matters during prayer requires an intentional effort to emphasize praise. You can help your group develop a habit of praise by using the following "prompts."
As you pray, suggest a category and lead with a sentence prayer, then pause so group members can
add their own praises in sentences or phrases.

Praise God for His creation.
What has God created that impresses you? (A mountain? Your favorite fruit? Your children?)

Praise God for His love.
How has God shown His love to you? (By giving His Son to die for your sins? Comforting you during a tough time? Extending forgiveness when you mess up? Sending people to share your burdens?)

Praise God for His Word.
What verse is your source of strength for today's circumstances? What verse has helped you in the past?

Praise God for His intervention.
What mistake might you have made if God had not revealed His wisdom to you? (A disastrous marriage or business partnership?) What ideas and insight has He given you? (An approach that resolved a parenting problem? A plan for a new project?)

Praise God for His character.
What praises flow from your heart as you meditate on God's majesty, His power, His love, His justice, or His presence?

If your group members are open to homework, you might ask them to compose a prayer of praise to pray at the next meeting.

Source: e-Navigator, 28 February 2005

Garing

Kalo dipikir2, garing banget deh blog aku..
Posting pertama cuman abstrak TA doang *grin*
Abis gimane lageh, lagi gak kreatip sih (emang biasanya kreatip gitu?:p), jadi gak punya ide..
Kasih saran dong buat nulis..

-yang lagi kena insomnia-

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Abstrak TA - 111940045 (Bahasa Indonesia)

Judul: Analisa Performansi Telephony pada Jaringan Internet

Kombinasi antara telepon dan internet telah melahirkan suatu teknologi baru yang disebut IP Telephony. IP Telephony menggunakan internet untuk mengirimkan suara antara telepon dengan telepon, PC dengan PC, ataupun telepon dengan PC, pada saat yang bersamaan.

Ada beberapa keuntungan yang dapat diperoleh sebagai layanan dari IP Telephony seperti biaya yang relatif murah, mobilitas pemakai, dan kemudahan dalam menggunakan terminal yang sudah ada.

Proses transmisi paket suara adalah sebagai berikut: suara yang akan dikirim sebelumnya dikonversikan dulu dari analog ke digital, kemudian dikompres, dipaketkan ke internet lewat jaringan IP, dan dirutekan pada tujuan akhir melalui internet. Proses dekompres dan pengembalian paket suara ke bentuk analog akan menimbulkan masalah kualitas suara. Proses kompresi dan dekompres ini juga berhubungan dengan masalah delay. Faktor lain yang juga mempengaruhi masalah delay ini adalah karena adanya buffering serta kondisi trafik di jaringan.

Diharapkan agar kualitas suara yang dihasilkan tidak jauh berbeda dengan suara yang dikirimkan, baik dari segi ukuran maupun warna suara. Hal ini berkaitan dengan teknik kompresi yang digunakan. Di samping itu masalah delay diusahakan dapat diatasi salah satunya dengan membuat arsitektur jaringan yang baik, yang akan membuat proses pengiriman suara dalam waktu yang sekecil mungkin.

Untuk melihat sejauh mana unjuk kerja layanan IP Telephony ini, maka dilakukan suatu analisa yang diharapkan dapat mempertahankan dan meningkatkan kemampuan layanan dengan menganalisa hal-hal seperti konversi dan kompresi suara, pensinyalan, trafik internet, serta arsitektur jaringan IP Telephony.

PS: Dipresentasikan di Bandung, 9 September 1999